My Sweetest....

Old hag thinks that the world revolves around her only?
Old hag thinks that she is the queen, everyone ought to listen to her?
Old hag thinks that she is the greatest so she can order us around?
Old hag thinks that she is the best example, we have to learn from her?
Old hag thinks that she is doing this for our own good, is that so?
Old hag thinks that she deserves the least respect from us, should we?
Old hag thinks that she is always right and will never be in the wrong, true?
Old hag thinks that she rules the world, you agree?

Too many things 've been happening in my life. I need to getaway from all these, it's been years. I,too, have been repeating this for millionth times in my site. I don't wish to mention the same thing like weeks or months later either. I pray for everything to get better as time goes by, I feel so pressurized, so stress-up. Whatever steps i take in my life, it's always under the control of somebody else. Somebody who just can't stop interfering in my affairs, Finding fault with me every single day, bringing up the same old issue, hatred comes first, cursing and swearing at me, forever fighting her way throughout. What kindof mother is this? Cursing and swearing on a Chinese New Year? Have you got any manners at all ?

I'm too shocked by all these, i cannot accept.
My life is just like a tale of woe........
All along, i wished i have a great pair of listening ears by me at all times.. or even at my weakest point of time. How i wish this pair of listening ears would be my mom's, because a mother knows her daughter best, because a mother should know how her daughter feels, because a mother ought to be there for her daughter and be her pillar of strength. Too bad, she is not the one whom i've longed to share all my problems and woes with. When i tried approaching her, she failed to be. She failed to listen to me, talking nicely to her. She failed to hear me pouring my sadness out to her. She failed to talk to me nicely, she failed to give me advices... and worst of all, she failed to understand me. The moment i start opening my mouth, before i could even start off my sad-tales, she'd get pissed off and not wanting to hear me out further more. She can't, she can't be my so-called, "best-of-friend"..........
Who would want this kind of mother around? Throwing words at her own flesh & blood, humiliating her, insulting her, she looks down on me when she herself 've got nothing good to mention at all. She is not worthy of my respect, my love and my care towards her.
Therefore, i am not going to regard her as "my mother" from now onwards. NO way am i gonna greet her, NO way am i gonna show her any respect, NO way am i gonna give a fucking damn to her.

Yes, i'm very hurt.

my keyboard is wet now.