My Sweetest....

Everything is solved in a very very very bad way.

This time it made me realized that i am being the same old me, why have i not changed into a better person yet? Being so harsh in my words, so rash, so impulsive, still as hot-headed as ever.. by reacting this way, i have learnt that it only hurts the people around me. For once, i thought it would only make others understand me well, understand me better. This time round, i am wrong to live on with such mindset. Like why am i reacting this way for? Tonight, the whole situation changed my mind. It's time for a change, i am serious. It's gonna make every situation worse if i choose to carry on being so harsh, so dominant. I made a big din out of it, it could've been solved just between the two of us but...............

Since now that it is over, whatever. I'm sorry for the unnecessary big hoo-ha i made, i'm sorry for the tears you shed, i'm sorry for the hurt i gave. All in all, i'm sorry for being like that. Yes, it is this.... bad.

I caused him to be so fuming mad as well, damn. I dislike my own character.

baby knocked some sense into me last now. hereby i admit that i was really really at fault at the very last minute. It was cruel of me to ignore him when he's having fever, when he's begging for forgiveness for the past 20 hours ? Me too learnt that i shouldn't let such minor thing to pull me down, it'll only land baby and me in anger. Hotheaded-vs-Hotheaded equals to no ending as well. Well, Had a heartfelt-words convo, it was very frank and serious of him. It's the second time hearing him out in such a serious tone, he must be feeling really down in the heart. What's right or wrong, he won't be able to teach me. I have to be the one knowing what's right and what's wrong myself, i have to learn through all these. Baby said he'll guide me throughout, i know i can always depend on him if i ever need someone there for me.

And in time to come you'll eventually become someone better, he said.